Trusting to my own feelings

Last Thursday the E-course Marisa is giving finally started and I am already so super glad I joined the course, I just can’t express how much in normal words. After listening to the first class, in my head I just went everywhere, I felt all over the place. I also just had started drawing some new work in my studio the same week so I guess my soul was very open in a way to really feel to what she had to say, (hope this didn’t sound like I am on some kind of drug). After the first class I also felt incredibly exited, inspired and focused on searching for a place that is still and silent so I can try and listen to myself.

The following 6 weeks, the duration of Marisa’s course, I would like to try and share some of the things that are happening within me as a result of that. Below I copied the e-mail I send to her after listening to the first audio she had send us.

Hi Marisa, I just heard your wonderful audio today. I tried to listen to it very carefully and replayed it in my head all day. I also listened to one of your podcasts later today, the one where you talked about the man that lost his job last year (it's the one that's called 'use what you have') and made one painting a day since then. I realized after hearing that one, I complain way too much. I complain mainly about having to little time to paint and do my sewing projects. My husband got unemployed last year and due to that I must work outside the home (with no creative type of work)almost full time to get some bread on the table for our family. We have two little kids that I take care of at the days that I am home, so that leaves me almost no time to do anything for my Etsy shops. So I do understand feeling desperate and making choices based on making money rather than creative integrity in my painting and sewing gin the past year. I just realized after hearing about the guy with the a painting a day idea, that maybe the energy I spend in complaining I have no time to create is just the time and energy I could use to create. I just wanted to add one thing about making a painting a day, I think it’s very hard to limit myself to just doing that, (if that time-wise is even a possibility)because ones I get started on something, I get carried away with everything I do so fast I just forget everything around me and find it very hard to get pulled back into the real world. So that’s the reason I sometimes don’t bother to even begin to paint, even if I do have a minute or two. That’s just very frustrating and this feeling causes me to complain more then I would like to.

For who would like to know more about the inspiring idea and inspiring work of the man that made a daily painting since his un-employment, Justin Clayton, his blog, and to Marisa's post on Justin, go here...